Thank You - My Guardian Angel

After a torturing 3 weeks of waiting period, today I just got confirmation from Dr. Lo that the result of our baby's amnio test is "NORMAL"!!!!! Other positive news include - the 4D high resulotion scan of the baby by Dr. Su from NTHU also found no other problem except still the thick NT. Compared to the Ultra sound performed by Dr. Lo two weeks ago, first the fluid around the body seemed to have disappeared; 2nd, the thickness of the NT had been reduced from 1.3cm to around 0.7cm/1cm...which are positive signs that things are moving towards the right direction. As next steps, we will have two more rounds of 4D ultra sound follow-up in the coming two weeks to track the changes... the decision has to be made by week 24 (baby is 20 week-old now).. so if nothing changes, we are left to make the decision just based on the information we have right now, which is not alot and will be the TOUGHEST choice we will ever have to make. Based on everything we know so far, I think chances of us wanting to keep this baby is now very high.

I've been losing sleep both of these nights. On Sunday night (the night before the 4D ultra sound), I kept waking up, and imagining what would happen at the ultra sound. I had images about seeing my baby completed blown up and wrapped by fluid... all kinds of bad thoughts went through my mind..in time like this, when people felt so helpless and needed support, pray seemed to be the only way to bring comfort and peace. The only difference was, since I don't have any religion, I was basically talking to all of our deceased relatives, hoping that they would guard us through this difficult time. I guess having more grandparents above may have helped...

Can't quite describe the feeling yet. Happy, definitely. Reliefed?? Not 100%... despite that these further check-up had not found any new evidence of problem, we still had not been able to locate and isolate the root cause of the thick NT...and according to the doctor, this could mean many different things...range from completely normal, to other problems which they have no idea and cannot say today....

Still don't know what will happen, but for me, I know that I need to stop worrying, so to give our baby boy the best enviroment to grow. Whatever is in place for him, I am sure will be great arrangement. God has been so kind to me and let me have 3 kids, 2 girls and one boy, exactly the combination I would have wanted it....and I cannot thank HIM more for it... so again, I will leave his job to him, and do my job, which is to be a good pregnant mother.

I want to thank all my families and friends who have provided their emotional support during this period. I also want to thank Hsaio-Wei, for being such a wonderful partner and father, to always be with me during this difficult time!